Romans 13:11-12 The Voice
And now consider this. You know well the times you are living in. It is time for you to wake up and see what is right before your eyes: for salvation is nearer to us now than when we first believed. The darkness of night is dissolving as dawn’s light draws near, so walk out on your old dark life and put on the armor of light.
Have you ever felt like you were living in darkness? For over two years, I felt like that, and I couldn’t really recognize it. I just knew I felt bad. I didn’t feel like myself and I felt bad all the time. It was a constant struggle to get out of bed or even face the day. I felt like I was living in a dark, gloomy cloud. All day long I felt like I was at the bottom of a pit and no matter how hard I climbed or how hard I struggled, I couldn’t get out. Looking at a sunset or a sunrise, I couldn’t see the beauty of it. I could only see the darkness. Even in a group, I felt alone. I felt like no matter what I did, I was not good enough and I could never meet my own expectations. I was suffering from depression. Many of us do, especially as the holidays approach, sometimes the darkness overtakes us.
Luckily, for me, the depression had a physical cause. Once I took care of the physical problem, my normal self returned and the darkness went away. It was like a new day for me. The new day only happened, because I sought help. In the hustle and bustle of the advent season, there are days that we all need help. If you are feeling that the holidays are too much, that every day life is too much, seek the help that is available to you. The night will eventually dissolve and the light of God will make a difference in your life. Sometimes, we need help to put on that armor of God and face the day. Don’t let the darkness overtake you this holiday season. Place one foot in front of the next and keep looking towards the light!
Dear God, some days, we cannot see your light. Some days the darkness overtakes us. If I am struggling with mental health issues this Christmas, please help me see your light and keep going. If I am struggling with every day stresses of the Christmas season, remind me to see your light. Amen.